Sometimes, when something like Omicron happens right before Christmas, you gotta just stop trying for a bit.
The ones we finally mourn
This is the day my babies died. It is a day that stands out on the calendar. June 18th, 28 years ago was the worst day of my life. Hands down. No contest. Harder than the day my Former Husband told me he’d probably leave. More difficult than the day he told me was leaving—and …
What is your Christmas tree saying?
Christmas trees are always personal. During COVID-19, however, many carry specific messages about the spirit of the household. What does yours say?
Saying G’bye to Summer 2020
Summer 2020 was the summer that let us reconnect with our people. The warmth of summer was our relationships–and the sunshine. Farewell, summer of 2020
Memories bring back you
A virtual children’s choir walks with Carolyn through the week of grief.
To those stopped at the green light
To all of the drivers who stopped at the green lights Winnipeg last week Monday, just after lunch… I want to thank you. I was in the funeral procession. 8 cars making a solemn, slow ride towards the cemetary. We travelled from near Polo Park to north of the perimeter on Main Street. I’d never …
Mentionable is Manageable
It would have been her birthday today. It was manageable because it was mentionable.
Beautiful Golden Scars
Today is the day I go to the cemetery to sing a lullaby to my sons. I write every year to honour their memory. These little ones who I anticipated with such longing and joy. These little ones whose death shattered me when they died. This comes after a birthday party where Husband and a few …
Pivot Point: Courage to hope
Today, I was driving on a road trip, shlepping athletes home from a tournament on the open highway. While driving, I listened on the radio to the memorial service taking place in Humboldt to honor those in the Broncos hockey team bus crash. I was struck by the permission that the mothers of two …
To my younger to-be-divorced-one-day-self on your wedding day
Dear Carolyn-bride, You didn’t know me all those years ago at 22—but you would have known I would be coming one day. I’ve been thinking a lot about you. This is a momentous anniversary of something now gone, and so I’ve been thinking about you more than usual in the last couple of days. Today …